inside me…

saya ngaung araw. maaga kami napauwi na ang ibig sabihin - mahabang.pahinga.

kaso mejo nalate din kami umuwi ng mga 2 hours? haha. me mga kelangan pa din kasi asikasuhin. tapos aun. nagkantahan pa, masaya naman.=]

isyu. oo. me nagbago. kasi naman. kala ko ok na usapan natin. mukhang malabo pa ata sau, kaibigan. wish ko ding maging friends na tau uli.

uwian. aun, kala mo naglakwatsa? haha, mejo. naghanap kami ng libro. iba nakita namin. ko. ang librong matagal ko ng gustong basahin. for one more day ni mitch albom. in fairness, nakakuha ng mura. haha. sana lang alang depekto. aun. me ininterview, chika chika. ganun pala nila nakukuha ung mga libro dun. kung d lang ako pagod baka, nakagawa na ako ng dokumentaryo. haha.

teka, ano nga ba ang dapat kong gawin ngaun?

B.A.S.A.

grabe, antagal na din pala since nagpost ako dito. anyway, at least, im back! keber?

aun, madaming kaganapan na ang nangyari sa buhay ko.

minsan masaya.

minsan malungkot.

minsan nakakaloka.

minsan nakakadepress.

minsan minsan.

malapit na ata ako mabaliw? haha. d naman. mahaba pa siguro itatagal ng lucid interval ko. yakang yaka yan! goodluck sakin at sating lahat.;]

The rules are simple: List down (20) things you want to say to 20 people but know you never will. Don’t say who they are.

1. Even though we never had a good time together, you’re one of the few people I’ll never ever forget.
2. God is really kind. He let me have you even for a short while. Even now, I know I still have you.
3. Do you think something like that can be replaced easily? Don’t you know it’s essence? You disappoint me.
4. I never really liked you. And perhaps, I never will.
5. Stop crying over him. He’s not even giving a damn about you.
6. Know what? You are truly lucky. He loves you. Uhm,oh well, he’s lucky to have you too after all.;)
7. Stop anticipating I like you. It’s really irritating.
8. I’m glad you are moving on with your life. But don’t forget the importance of education. I do hope you finish it.
9. I really don’t have anything to say to you. I’m just glad we’re friends. Truly. Ah, and you know what? Someone’s jealous over you and ****.
10. Everybody thinks I like him. But the truth is, I like you more.
11. I hope you get her "yes". I would be really happy for you. I don’t like people calling you "bubuntot-buntot". For me, what you’re doing’s really sweet.
12.Your message meant a lot to me. I kept on reading and reading it. Thank you too.;)
13.I hope you get home again soon. We’ll have so much fun.=)
14.Being proud of yourself is different from being arrogant and boastful.
15.I miss our friendship a lot. I hope you haven’t forgotten about me.;(
16.You have gone a long distance. Do not forget to look back. Hello? We’re still here.
17.You cannot move on if you always compare yourself to me. Don’t you think you must take me as a challenge instead?
18.You must know when not to talk. You’re just too loud and it’s not funny anymore.
19. It’s you right now. But i guess it’s just too one sided.
20. I wish I had your life.

i was surprised when someone asked me earlier, "champi, bat lagi kang nakasmile ngaun?"

baket, masama bang magsmile??

i don’t even know why he would ask such question. mga tao nga naman oh. pag nakasimangot ka, seryoso ka. pag lage ka namng nakangiti,me dahilan pa din. kelangan bang lahat ng ginagawa, maski ung super ultimate mega detail me explanation? duh?

pero come to think of it. bat nga ba ako madalas nakasmile ngeon? d ko din alam eh. d ko nga napapansin eh.

cguro kasi, madami na akong iniisip at pag maxado ko pang sineryoso, tatanda lang ako ng wala sa panahon. siguro, i just want to stay positive.

at cguro,…..

hmmmm,,, SECRET na lang..=P

grabe, for the first time sa sem na e2 nasayahan ako… not that i had received an A or 100 grade in any of my subjects but i guess i feel sooo lucky this day…

i feel so happy indeed…

nakasama ko ung mga old friends ko to watch some movie. it was fun although bitin daw ung pelikula. haha. although ako ndi ko nafeel na sandali lang kasi anxious ako sa time. baka malate ako eh me super exam pa kami. hehe, ala ng review review, ching! haha…=D

then nung uwian, pag-uwi ng sis ko, aun me balita daw xa sakin. nakita daw nya ung dalawang friend ko na magkasama. a guy and a gurl. haha, pinagtataksilan daw ako. haha. as if naman no? close naman ako sa kanila pareho and dun sa guy not to the point namn na aabot sa ganun? haha…. kaka talaga sis ko minsan…

sabi pa nya, "ano ka ba? kunin mo na xa!" haha, parang bagay lang na madaling makuha ha?

nakakaamuse kung pano masasabi ng ibang tao na bagay kau or bagay ka sa isang tao…

haha…

"tope! alam mo bagay kau ni cj!…" yiheee…

Grabe, parang ngaun ko lang nafifeel na mahirap DAW ang college. musta naman? bakit ngaun pa??? huhu….

to quote my friend, haggardness at its finest…

ok na sana, sana kahit pano maramdaman ko un. Lalo na un? hay naku, peste.

and sana, they won’t expropriate from me the knowledge of knowing the how’s and why’s of everything i’m confused of… anuh? ewan ko… bangag na ako noh… ay di pa naman, HHHAAGGGAAARRRDDD lang.

tapos midterms na sa katapusan? hay naku, SSHHHAAABBOOOGG na ako…

haha.. pero kaya yan, ako pa? huhu… hehe… nde, kakayanin yan! kayang kaya ko yan!

~ 94% haggard… ~

pesteng zero base yan…

A couple of days ago, one of my friends sent me this quote:

            "Would you love someone who completes you,

            or someone who loves you completely?"

Somehow, since I’ve got nothing better to do, (haha), I thought that was puzzling…
But now, with the help of some movie clips, I came up with an answer…

When you love someone, it’s not because he/she completes you. love needs no such reason… You love someone because you love him/her. Dahil sya yun. Wala ng iba. you love him/her completely. That’s what that person deserve. That’s what we deserve. And its not just because we want to be completed, right?

oh well, maybe I’ll go for the person who loves me completely for now, haha.

"di ba ganun pag in love? COMPLETE." - you are the one.^_^

hay… i’m kinda problematic at naghahanap lang ako ng matinong kausap.

sadly, the person na i think would fill that gap, HINDI PALA XA UN.

siguro nga mejo aning aning din ako at tinawag ko syang ganun.<salbahe>.hehe.

la lang. parang gusto ko lang ng INTRO? tnry ko na umpisahan ung pagsabi ng gusto kong ishare ung nasa isip ko, kaso aun, napikon lang ata sa kin.

hay.

actually 3 silang tinext ko ng ganung intro. at xa lang ang nagreply. i thought that was the sign na siguro nga, makikita ko na ung taong kahit pano makakafill sa space na naiwan sakin ng best friend ko.

hay, sa totoo lang, bakit ba mas madali magkamali?

bakit ba sa tuwing naalala ko na matagal pa bago kami magkita ulit, nalulungkot ako.

gayung suportadong suportado k xa sa gusto nyang gawin?

siguro nalulungkot lang ako sa katotohanang walang pedeng pumalit sa kanya.

at ung taong akala ko makakapalit sa kanya, ndi pala.

sana palagay ko lang ung hindi pala.

i really think he would be a nice friend.

so ang promise ko ngaun sa sarili ko?

mejo iiwas muna ako sa barkada niya.

mejo nagiging close na ako maxado sa kanila eh.

hehe.

paalam.

i reaLLy don’t know how to start… how i could explain… pero i know i have my faults. maybe i was inconsiderate.

but hello? pwede bang dahil don super d ka na mamansin??!! at tataasan mo pa kami ng kilay?? na cinombine mo pa ng facial expression na higit sa lahat i sooooooo HATE.

i understand you made your efforts. you feel na naging wasted un dahil d mo napresent. didn’t you even realize na it was almost time and i said you can continue it next meeting? even the prof allowed you to do so. i was really surprised on how you acted when the class ended.

moreover, i was DISAPPOINTED.

how can it be na someone who claims to be good listener to not understand the situation and just be one sided on an issue such as that na WALANG KAKWENTA KWENTA??

what am i feeling now? i’m DISAPPOINTED/SAD/TIRED/SLEEPY(yeah not connected)

i feel that i lost someone. someone who i thought SHE was.

well i did try to approach you. i tried to say sorry. and i did tolerate your response. grabe. seriously, kaw pa lang ang nagganun sa kin. buti d sumabay ang galit ko. buti somehow, i’ve changed.

well, enough na. d naman ako galit eh. DISAPPOINTED lang. pero kung ayaw nya makipag-usap sakin… well, it really proves, THEY COME AND GO.

sayang, kung kelan magtatapos na ang sem…

dahil lang sa powerpoint, masisira na?

sheesh.

dunno… can’t really think straight today… i’m sick… and i’m sick…

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i just remembered that i made this promise that i would post more this year… i guess it won’t happen… promises, sometimes, are broken… but never meant to be broken…

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how long will the dragon and his son "constrain" each other? dunno… i just hope the year wont pass without them forgiving each other…

and will the dragon ever change? hmmm…

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how can ma’m gesy be so cruel?? huhuhu….

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i hope i pass..