loveless…
just wanna share an message sent to my mail… here it is…
WHERE’S MY MATE , LORD?
Yes, mam ime, ive asked that question myself, too.
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It is indeed a wonderful feeling to love and be loved in return. I couldn’t agree more.
Even if we’ve suffered much pain brought to us by that powerful word called love, we still continue to let it rule our hearts. Why not? It is His gift. It is one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit. And above of all, it is the greatest thing on earth.
But how are you going to deal with it, when at times you realize that there is no room for love in your heart – only pain and all its synonyms.
I will never forget the night I cried so hard, I wanted to scream my heart out … I wanted to ‘Meet Joe Black’ and ask him to take me so I could not be reminded of having a broken heart.
Love is supposed to be wonderful, I keep telling myself. But how can it be when it leave one’s heart with so much grief.
But then, realize. God himself has suffered because of love. It has nothing compared to my worries about this not-so-cute-not –so-handsome guy I’m into. Helluer!
I mean, God.. you know.. you are an extraordinary Man, with an extraordinary heart. I am just but an ordinary girl who loves an ordinary guy, with an ordinary hope that we’d be spending the rest of our lives together.
Why are you so KJ? (I wanted to ask Him that, but I never tried to. I think it’s so unethical…) so why can’t it be the two of us? (that sounds better… do it in a song!)
Well, what’s good about God is that He has all the answers to my non-sense question… and in the first question raised earlier, here’s what He has to say:
“I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan – one that you cannot imagine – (imagine that!). don’t look around things you want, just keep looking off and up to me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.”
Whew! See that? Here’s some more:
“ and when you are ready, I’ll surprise you with A LOVE FAR MORE WONDERFUL than any other that you could dream of.”
Now that’s what I want – a love far more wonderful – I bet, you too.
I am a self confessed hopeless romantic. Can’t deny that. I’ve seen a lot of romantic movies even Koreanovelas – ‘Lovers in Paris’ to name one (its my most favorite) –
and I’ve always dreamed of having the same love story like Vivian Kang did. But come to think of it, I can be different – can be more romantic and be more heart thrilling. But that’s up to the Director of my life – God.
And His first instruction – Pray while you wait.
He said:
“Until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time…”
wow! Is that the reason why I suffer much pain and heartache? Because I am not ready and so is my mate? Owhh, that’s a little convincing.
But Lord, is it possible to prevent a broken heart? I mean, if you are still preparing someone for me, then don’t let anyone came into my way and make me fall in love with him, so I won’t get hurt.
Sounds like, I’m a prodigal daughter now.
God is orchestrating events in our lives to bring Himself glory. Trust His plans. Trust His hands. Imagine this – God created the universe perfectly, can’t He made a perfect match for His dearest child. Come one, don’t be in a hurry. God would love you to take one day at a time, just like what He did when He created the heaven and the earth.
So, are you suffering from a heartache? Forget it. You tired of looking for someone to love you, leave it to Him. He is under control. I’m sure, you don’t want to miss His surprise of ‘a love far more wonderful?’
Listen, it is more than a tragedy to miss God’s will for one’s life. Imagine what kind of tragedy it could have been if Jesus missed His plan to die in the cross?
Just like looking for a mate, don’t settle for less, you are a child of God, you must settle for the Best – He can give you that – in His own appointed time.
So for this Valentine, join me in singing one great song for broken hearted ones – I can’t say when it will be over. Maybe it’s the fittest that survive it. Or maybe survival is pure chance itself.
But in my case, I have grown to have a broken heart. Maybe its fate. Or for comic reason, it’s there for something.
It’s there to remind me that the reason why I get hurt, I get scared, and I cry due to a broken heart is because I’m out of God’s way, and I’m not following His will for me.
God said, NO. I said, YES. He said, NOT YET. I said, THIS IS IT, LORD.
Disobedience and impatience – two words that can cause you miss God’s wonderful plan. Try it, you’ll end up in one word – PAIN.
Yes, Lord, now I understand. I’ve got to stop looking around things that I want. You’re the BOSS, right? You want the Best for me?! Then so be it… Go ahead… it’s all up to you now!
February 18th, 2006 at 10:55 am
God promises so many things to so many people… (-_-)
Might I suggest that you explore things(to a certain point) rather than waiting for something to happen. It works better that way. Experiencing “Pain” is part of life. And one cannot live life fully without taking RISKS. Afterall, we only get one shot at life. So make the most of it.
But, these are only my thoughts. It is as such merely because I’d like to think that I am capable of finding things on my own accord, and not by anyone elses will. (^_^)
~XinSuNg of RemuS~
IlluminatuS ExtraordinairE