it’s been a long time na din…

April 28th, 2006 by alma-pacita

hmm, matagal na din nung huli akong mag blog ha? mejo kinalawang na ata isip ko, hehe.. sa totoo lang, masaya magblog lalo na pag madami kang gustong sabihin.. parang exercise na din sa isip natin lalo na ngaung bakasyon na walang ginagawa maxado.. pero sa totoo lang minsan, me mga times na madami kang gustong sabihin din na di mo naman basta masasabi lang.. ung mga tipong, sa CLOSE friends mo lang masasabi.. at hindi basta masasabi sa iba.. bakit? hmm, SIKRETONG MALUPET!!!!

ngaun, bakit ko ba naisipang iblog ito? hmm, la lang, la na ko maisip eh, charing! la naman, naalala ko lang ung isa kong close friend na super napagsabihan ko ng lahat ng naiisip ko kahit feeling nya hindi.. nakakamiss ang luko loko! hehe, kelan kaya uli kami magkikita? nyweiz, aun nga.. actually, mejo nakalimutan ko n nga un eh, lam mo un, para d mo na maxado mamiss? pero kagabi, ung katxt ko, aun, nagtext ng quote na di naman sinasadyang, uhm, last quote and message na sinend ni best friend sa kin.. hays, dun ko narealize na di talaga ganon kadaling kalimutan ang mga taong alam mo, at alam mong alam din nya, eh nag-iwan ng mark sa isip at puso mo.. parang tattoo na permanent, d lang basta henna na matatanggal din later on.. hehe, tingnan mo nga, pati pa naman un naalala ko pa? aus!

at dahil la ako maisip maxado, naisipan ko lang naman na ishare sa inyo lahat (hehe) ang ilan sa mga pinagsamahan namin at ilan sa mga natutunan ko sa kanya. ang best friend na sinasabe ko ay alang iba kundi c Rogene, Roge as we call him… nakilala ko xa after ng huling pt sa esps nung first year, la naman, me pinakuha lang ung teacher namin sa kanya.. sya naman, kilala na daw nya ako matagal na, or at least nung mula nung first year.. ayon sa kanya ang first encounter namen eh, nung first year recognition, in an effort na magkakilala kami, nagtanong sya sakin kung saan next na pupunta, and unfortunately, ang sagot ko daw is "pif, d b napraktis na natin yan?" haha, sa totoo lang, di ko na matandaan un, at di ko matandaang na sinabihan ko xa ng ganun, actually, di ko nga matandaang nakausap ko sya noon, in short, di ko xa napansin noon…

then, pagdating ng third year naging classmates kami.. pagpasok daw nya ng room, para daw xang nafreeze ng malaman nyang klasmeyt nya ako.. para daw kasi xang natrauma sakin nung first year(OA!). pero still, tnry daw nyang makipagakaibigan sa kin dat year and well, it came out really well.. di ko na matandaan kung paano kami nging close or how kami nging friends in the first place.. basta alam ko after that, i knew, i found another true friend in him. tanda ko pa nung una nyang sinabe sakin ung kowt na un, parang  ganito, it’s better to have a single true friend than many best friends, because not all best are true but all true are best… and well, totoo un… tatlo kaming mgkakaibigan dat tym, ako, xa, and justine.. dahil sa kanya, natuklasan kong masarap palang tumambay sa library, makipagminggle sa iba ibang tao, at higit sa lahat mga bagay bagay tungkol sa ating relihiyon..

naging classmates kaming tatlo hanggang fourth year, kahit na mejo nagkalamat ang pagkakaibigan nila ni justine, i was really glad ng maayos un, kahit feel ko huli na yun.. mejo lumaki ang circle of friends namin at lalong naging masaya.. totoo, masaya ang fourth year, siguro dahil na din sa palagay ko naspend namin ang bawat oras na magkakasama kami ng masaya at me kabuluhan..

isa sa mga pinakagusto kong natutnan sa kanya is ang pagcocompare sa mga tao.. dati kasi, madalas kong xnxbe sa kanya na para syang si jo anne na best ko mula pa ng elem. ang point nya, kasi kahit gaano kalaki ang resemblances ng characters ng dalawang tao, magkaiba pa din sila.. and baka wala na ko maisip kundi ang pagkumparahin ang pagkakatulad at pagkakaiba nila, and baka di nya daw mameet ung expectations ko… puro baka d b? pero i think he has a point, at pinaalala nya un sakin. pano? basta… kaya, uhm, dun sa taong nacompare ko naman sa kanya.. sorry, baka mamaya, isip mo, maxado na kita nacocompare.. tsuri..

then graduation na, nakakalungkot kasi, literally, magkakahiwalay na kami.. nga pala, magpapari ang luko lukong un.. nakaktuwa d ba? pramis pa nga non samin, pag knasal daw kaming mga kaibigan nya, sya daw ang magiging pari, how nice.. sbe nga ni pau, sigurado pag dating ng time na un, grabeng kwentuhan ang mangyayari.. haha. ewan ko, baka maiyak pa ko.. iniisip ko lang, buti kung maalala pa nya ako.. 15 years xa sa loob ng seminaryo, alang dalang kahit anong pic na magpaparemind sa min.. pero sana wag nya kami makalimutan noh? gagalit ako, tapos di na kami bati pag nagkataon, hmp! hehe..

final message para kay roge, oi, kung sakali mang mabasa mo ito, aba, maiyak ka.. haha, basta, tandaan mo, di kita malilimutan, di ka namin malilimutan, gaya ng sbe mo sa huli mong message sakin, kasama ka na sa bumuo ng pagkatao ko.. lagi kitang maalala ngaun, bukas, at magpakailanman(ew, corny, hehe) mamimiss kita, basta galingan mo jan sa loob, at alam mo namang nasa likod  mo lang ako.. salamat sa lahat at patawad sa lahat ng kakulitan ko at pakikipagpilosopohan ko sau…

hay, grabe, tingnan ko lang kung sino ang makapagtyagang magtapos nitong ibnlog ko.. hehe, di ko narealize, ang haba na pala.. at least napatunayan ko na di pa naman mxdo nakakalawang ang aking mind, hehe!

chao!

A Dream…

April 6th, 2006 by alma-pacita

Last night, I was calling for your name…

I was so alone…

I was so worried …

But I really don’t know why…

I wanted you to be beside me at that moment…

I wanted you to hold my hand…

I wanted you to ease the pain I am feeling,

Just by smiling at me…

I kept calling for your name…

But you never came…

I wanted to hear it from you…

The words I also long to say to you…

You are my love…

And forevermore you’ll be…

Even if it’s just a dream,

For me it’s reality…

You are my love…

My reason…

My whole…

My soul…

di ako tinamaan pero….

March 19th, 2006 by alma-pacita

una sa lahat, gusto kong malaman mo na hindi ko alam kung ano ang problema talaga…

bigla ka na lang umiwas…

kung kelan akala ko ok na tayo lahat…

nagkasiyahan pa nga tayo di ba?!

tapos ngaun, nagpopost ka pa jan ng kung ano..

at ayaw mong sabihin kung bakit…

at gusto mo pa talagang mabasa namin?!

at ngaun nabasa ko na, anong gusto mong iparating?

anong problema mo?

at anong problema natin?

ano ang nangyari na’t hindi na maiiwasan?!

duh!

nakakainis… matagal na din ang isang taon para malaman mo na ayoko ng hindi diresto magsalita..

kung me gusto kang iparating sabihin mo!

hindi ung simpleng nagpapatama ka lang!

at sa totoo lang, hindi ako tinamaan.

dahil alam kong wala akong nagawang mali sau.

pero…

gusto kong malaman kung me problema ba talaga…

magkakahiwalay na tau eh!

gusto ko maayos muna ito…

at higit sa lahat, dahil kaibigan kita…

ayoko ng madrama, pero pinaka ayoko ang nang-iiwan ng kaibigan.

nakakainis…

sana magkaliwanagan tau…

ayoko ng PLASTIKAN!

please lang…

sbihin mo na!

ayusin na natin ito!

girl talk

March 13th, 2006 by alma-pacita

kung guy ka, pwede ba, wag mo ng ituloy ang pagbasa.

girl talk ito sabi eh…

ayan, ala na ba?! hehehehe..

sabagay alam na naman nila ito eh…

kanina pagbukas ko ng tv, pinakita ung commercial ng kim sam soon. usapang babae daw. topic? boys…

uu nga noh? bakit ba ganon? parang ang sarap pag-usapan ung mga opposite sex.? in our case, boys..di namn dahil sa kung anu-ano, kundi parang un talaga ung pinakainteresting na pagusapan. lalabas lahat ng nalalamang kalokohan, mga iniisip at higit sa lahat,ang mga tinatagong pagtingin!(kilig!) hahahaha!

masama ba? hindi naman. nakakahiya? bakit naman? eh sila din naman, ganon din ang gawain eh. minsan nga malala pa.(?)

pero ano ba point ko? uhm, ala naman maxado. minsan kasi talaga, magandang pag-usapan ang mga bagay na hindi naman normal na pinag-uusapan. tulad nyan. nakadadagdag din naman ng konting kaalaman yan eh.(tulad ko?) un nga lang, kelangan me certain limitations. ano un? no need to tell.

hais, tagal ko na kasing nagpost eh. ayan, kung anu-ano na lang nsasabi ko. parang lasing? hahahaha! chao!

kung ayaw mo, eh di huwag!

March 1st, 2006 by alma-pacita

golly, ang lapit na ng bday ko… time seems to fly(duh)… and when we talk about bdays, of course, isa sa mga naiisip natin is, well, none other than PRESENTS! hehehehe…

lahat naman tayo siguro nakareceive na ng regalo db? (naman!) sa totoo lang, nakakatuwa pag nakakatanggap ka ng mga gifts eh… kasi nakakatuwang isipin na me nakaalala sa iyo db? parang special ka at di ka nya nakalimutan, hehehehe… pero xempre in return, we must learn how to appreciate… simpleng pag-iingat lang sa binigay sau OK na…

demo

paano kung ung taong binigyan mo eh, di man lang pinahalagahan ung binigay mo? i.e. di man lang pinahalagahan? nakakainis db? lalo na kung  para sa yo special un eh, pero sa kanya, hmp, mukhang hinde!nakakaloka db? parang iisipin mo, hay naku, mukhang nagkamali ata ako ng binigyan, gggrrrrr… hehehe…

paano ko ba nasasabi na hindi ‘mapagpahalaga’ ang isang tao?

well kung tatanungin nyo ako ngaun, tatlong dahilan ang naiisip ko naiisip ko…( which means na pwede pa magbago isip ko depende sa situation! xenxa, gurlash ako eh!)

> una, pag binigyan mo, d man lang nag-thank you. para bang, "la lang."

> next, di na nga ginagamit, di man lang iniingatan! e.g. nawala daw?!

> and finally, at pinakamatindi, ok lang sa kanya na ibigay sa iba ung binigay mo! ganda db?! bakit? kasi, " hindi naman nga nya ginagamit.." duh?! haller?! excuses….

  • now, don’t take me wrong, as i’ve said(or rather written)above, these things are just my opinion by NOW. it may change, it may not.

  • pero, paano ko ba ito nasabi? akin na lang yun… it may be out of experience, or maybe i just felt what my friend felt.

  • me gusto ba akong patamaan? ewan, ala cguro. kayo na lang bahalang humusga. ngaun kung medyo, nasaktan ka, pasenxa ka, dapat di mo na binasa kung sa umpisa pa lang palagay mo, ikaw na ung sinasabihan ko.(HUH?)

well,un lang,gusto ko lang mag-share… pero one thiong i’ve learned? ito…nabasa ko lang ito date eh, " we get hurt so we would not others hurt the way we were" pax!

cge na nga, usap na tayo dali!…

February 23rd, 2006 by alma-pacita

nakakatawa… iniiwasan ko na nga, pinalapit pa sakin.,,.
hehehehe… well, that’s life, expect the unexpected, sabi nga..
pero ito lang, sa totoo lang, pag matagal mo na palang di nakausap ang isang taong naging close mo na…

nakakamiss pala talaga…

nafeel ko un kanina, sobra…kakaiba ang feeling..
so sad na parang nakakapanghinayang… haiz….

iniisip ko,,, musta na kaya xa?
nakakamiss ung mga pagkkwentuhan namin eh…
ung mga tawanan, asaran, lahat,,,…
nakakapanghinayang ung mga time na sana nagkasama pa at nagkasiyahan…
naiyak pa nga ako eh, (db che?!)

mahirap pala talaga ang maging mapride,…sobra…
pero once na nalunok mo na ang pesteng pride na yan, at sinimulan mo nang makipagbati…
ang sarap ng feeling.. para kang nabawasan ng tinik… ehehehehe…

minsan kasi, kelangan talagang me gumawa ng first move para maayos ang lahat eh..
kung pinagbabati nga kau tapos ayaw nyo naman. ala rin…

kaya, u know hu u r(?), bati na tau huh?
cge na nga, usap na tayo ulit, jeling na ako eh…
weeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh….
hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!chinG!

cge, d2 na lang, these is for you!

"I wonder if it can be possible that, behind this poor mask of
disgust and under a steady barrage of abuse, I have ever really
succeeded in concealing from you the fact that I look on you as one of
the most enjoyable companions and the most admirable human beings it is
my good fortune to know."
Alexander Woollcott 

quotable quotes…

February 23rd, 2006 by alma-pacita

 
Don’t walk in front of me because I may not follow.
Don’t walk behind me because I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.
- Albert Camus

Brian Kessler: When you first meet people all you notice are
the differences between you and them, but as time passes you start
noticing the similarities. I guess that’s how all friendships begin.
Movies > Kalifornia

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the
kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual
inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else
believes in him and is willing to trust him.
> Ralph Waldo Emerson

A friend is a gift you give yourself.
> Baltasar Gracian

The only way to have a friend is to be one.
> Ralph Waldo Emerson

True friendship multiplies the good in life and divides its
evils. Strive to have friends, for life without friends is like life on
a desert island…to find one real friend in a lifetime is good
fortune; to keep him is a blessing.
> Baltasar Gracian

My mother used to say that there are no strangers, only friends
you haven’t met yet. She’s now in a maximum security twilight home in
Australia.
as Dame Edna Everage
> Barry Humphries

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild
beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound
your mind.
> Buddha

A friendship that can end never really began.
> Publilius Syrus

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies.
> Aristotle

hmmm..

February 19th, 2006 by alma-pacita

hey guys, this is my horoscope for the day…

>If you’re not comfortable with a new situation, say so — the earlier the better.<

well, what can i say? did it hit me? dunno…
basta… madali lang xang basahin, pero di ganon kadaling gawin noh?!
hahahahahaha!!!!
la lang…
nag share lang!!!
hehehehe…
chao!>_<

loveless…

February 15th, 2006 by alma-pacita

just wanna share an message sent to my mail… here it is…

WHERE’S MY MATE , LORD?

Yes, mam ime, ive asked that question myself, too.

***

It is indeed a wonderful feeling to love and be loved in return. I couldn’t agree more.

Even if we’ve suffered much pain brought to us by that powerful word called love, we still continue to let it rule our hearts. Why not? It is His gift. It is one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit. And above of all, it is the greatest thing on earth.

But how are you going to deal with it, when at times you realize that there is no room for love in your heart – only pain and all its synonyms.

I will never forget the night I cried so hard, I wanted to scream my heart out … I wanted to ‘Meet Joe Black’ and ask him to take me so I could not be reminded of having a broken heart.

Love is supposed to be wonderful, I keep telling myself. But how can it be when it leave one’s heart with so much grief.

But then, realize. God himself has suffered because of love. It has  nothing compared to my worries about this not-so-cute-not –so-handsome guy I’m into. Helluer!

I mean, God.. you know.. you are an extraordinary Man, with an extraordinary heart. I am just but an ordinary girl who loves an ordinary guy, with an ordinary hope that we’d be spending the rest of our lives together.

Why are you so KJ? (I wanted to ask Him that, but I never tried to. I think it’s so unethical…) so why can’t it be the two of us? (that sounds better… do it in a song!)

Well, what’s good about God is that He has all the answers to my non-sense question… and in the first question raised earlier, here’s what He has to say:

“I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan – one that you cannot imagine – (imagine that!). don’t look around things you want, just keep looking off and up to me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.”

Whew! See that? Here’s some more:

“ and when you are ready, I’ll surprise you with A LOVE FAR MORE WONDERFUL than any other  that you could dream of.”

Now that’s what I want – a love far  more  wonderful – I bet, you too.

I am a self confessed hopeless romantic. Can’t deny that. I’ve seen a lot of romantic movies even Koreanovelas – ‘Lovers in Paris’ to name one (its my most favorite) –
and I’ve always dreamed of having the same love story like Vivian Kang did. But come to think of it, I can be different – can be more romantic and be more heart thrilling. But that’s up to the Director of my life – God.

And His first instruction – Pray while you wait.

He said:

“Until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time…”

wow! Is that the reason why I suffer much pain and heartache? Because I am not ready and so is my mate? Owhh, that’s a little convincing.

But Lord, is it possible to prevent a broken heart? I mean, if you are still preparing someone for me, then don’t let anyone came into my way and make me fall in love with him, so I won’t get hurt.

Sounds like, I’m a prodigal daughter now.

God is orchestrating events in our lives to bring Himself glory. Trust His plans. Trust His hands. Imagine this – God created the universe perfectly, can’t He made a perfect match for His dearest  child. Come one, don’t be in a hurry. God would love you to take one day at a time, just like what He did when He created the heaven and the earth.

So, are you suffering from a heartache? Forget it. You tired of looking for someone to love you, leave it to Him. He is under control. I’m sure, you don’t want to miss His surprise of ‘a love far more wonderful?’

Listen, it is more than a tragedy to miss God’s will for one’s life. Imagine what kind of tragedy it could have been if Jesus missed His plan to die in the cross?

Just like looking for a mate, don’t settle for less, you are a child of God, you must settle for the Best – He can give you that – in His own appointed time.

So for this Valentine, join me in singing one great song for broken hearted ones – I can’t say when it will be over. Maybe it’s the fittest that survive it. Or maybe survival is pure chance itself.

But in my case, I have grown to have a broken heart. Maybe its fate. Or for comic reason, it’s there for something.

It’s there to remind me that the reason why I get hurt, I get scared, and I cry  due to a broken heart is because I’m out of God’s way, and I’m not following His will for me.

God said, NO. I said, YES. He said, NOT YET. I said, THIS IS IT, LORD.

Disobedience and impatience – two words that can cause you miss God’s wonderful plan. Try it, you’ll end up in one word – PAIN.

Yes, Lord, now I understand. I’ve got to stop looking around things that I want. You’re the BOSS, right? You want the Best for me?! Then so be it… Go ahead… it’s all up to you now!

hey, you!

February 15th, 2006 by alma-pacita

why are there such people as bullies?

i mean, of what good are they really for ba?

every where you’ll see them hanging around, waiting for their prey…

in your community, school, or just even inside your own house…

yadda… i hate them…

i hate my bully xander even more…

it’s a sin they say to hate someone, but really, why did God created them in the first place? no body wants them, sheesh…

well, maybe that’s why, so we can get the chance to know and love them…

can that change them for the better?

dunno… but i guess it could be worth the try…

i still love my bully xander naman eh…

just hope he would not be so moody anymore…

even just before he pass…(?)

god bless, bully xander!